Sometimes I wonder why I sign up or commit to things like this. It never fails that life gets in the way and foils my attempt at success.
After my health scare the nurse did confirm that I had high blood pressure, though it has since gone down. No preclampsia…yet.
Now I am just super freaked out to over exert myself. Example, I started doing dishes tonight and my heart started racing. Now the dishes are not getting done and I’m sitting on my arse. It is probably just normal pregnancy stuff.
It doesn’t help that everyone treats me like I am a ticking time bomb. People just make me more nervous with their comments to take it easy, etc.
I have done yoga since this little scare, three times in fact. All three times I have felt that massive pressure in my head from inversions. But other than inversions, I feel just fine. I’ve also painted in the nursery for several hours straight and felt pretty good.
I see my Ob on Friday. I am excited to see if it is ok for me to resume exercise so I can shake it like MJ. I think seeing her will take some of the edge off.
My biggest fear is bed rest. I couldn’t imagine not doing yoga or doing work around the house. Even partial bed rest would give me depression. I mean how awesome does sitting at a desk for 9 hours and then coming home to lay around sound?
Grrreat.
I mean I have yoga to do, nurseries to paint, closets to organize, high scores to beat on MJ.
Overall I guess 6 out of 10 days of the yoga challenge isn’t too bad. I guess.
Namaste
Shawnee
Shawnee . . . here are my heartfelt thoughts in response to your post.
As I was gently reminded at last night’s yoga class, yoga is more than asana. Perhaps it’s a perfect time to meditate, breathe, learn some chants, revisit the Sutras and consider how these compliment your physical practice (which it sounds like you can still do, without inversions) and your teaching. If you end up having to do the “worst” thing you can think of, consider that it will be short-lived in the big picture of life, it will support a healthier pregnancy and offer unknown opportunities . . . like researching and writing articles.
Your dilemma made be think of a yogi (Gary Kraftsow) I greatly admire and his thoughts about asana in the face of a dramatic health issue he faced . . . “My desire for all those who have only been exposed to the asana part of yoga is that they have an opportunity to appreciate the depth and breadth of this great tradition,” he says. “When you have a life-threatening or serious condition, you can’t rely on what you could rely on before. Yoga is like a raft that can help you go through these things. But in my case it wasn’t asana. It wasn’t even breathing. It was attitude, prayer. These are going to help you when you can’t do anything else.” Here’s the link to the full article http://www.himalayaninstitute.org/yoga-international-magazine/inspiration-articles/radical-healing-yoga-with-gary-kraftsow/
My hope for you is that you’ll be able to continue with your practice t